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Lack of Progress Report
Jul. 19th, 2010 04:07 pm
I can't think of anything clever to write this week, but I figured my friends might not mind hearing that I'm alive and OK.
Writing has been... meh. I'm not going to do the artistic whining thing here about how unappreciated I am, especially because most of the lack of response to my recent writings has been because I have FORGOTTEN TO POST THEM places. I don't know when the last time I posted to my own personal site may have been, and the first thing I need to do before posting there is go back through my various stories and my posts here and see what ought to be transferred over there in one form or another.
I also haven't posted to The Fandom Site I frequent in several months. That's easier to figure out, since only the anthropomorphic animal stories go there; not the poetry or the general "Postcards" related stuff. But I've got three or four stories to put up even there (I think).
Of course one source of my discouragement is that I DID post a couple nice pictures there. These are tasteful nudes-- I don't enjoy them the way one might enjoy pornography, oh no, not me, my heart is too pure for that (looks away and whistles innocently..) very nice pieces, though, just beautiful. They really go to the heart.
I only posted somebody else's work on my own page because she asked me to. They were originals I got from her at the convention. One was a little sketch she sold, the other was a sketch in my sketchbook; she didn't have the means to take digital copies of them at the time. So with her permission I posted them on my own page. That way she could grab copies of them without having to give me any personal contact information. (I don't think I'm that creepy, but there ARE creepy folks out there, and artists need to be careful sometimes.)
Well.. those two sketches between them got as many "faves" as all the stories I ever posted there combined. It just figures. I know what the "readers" want, and it ain't me.
Come to think of it, I guess that might be why I haven't posted stories much lately. I'm still writing stuff. I always will. But when I post a story I do it so someone else can enjoy them. I hope they do, but it's only seldom I get any sort of feedback that anybody does.
Although one sure way to get feedback is to, say, get one of the rules of poker wrong. You'll get a dozen people jumping in to set you straight on it.
Other than that, I have been pretty busy with family stuff. We had a funeral for a distant relative of mine- she was 101 years old, and healthy enough to enjoy life almost to the end, so in a way it's hard to grieve too much for her. And as usual I'm worried about the health of several of my other relatives and the heartaches of certain dear friends-- the tragedy of why things have to go sour for people who don't deserve it.
Also some worries about my own future, finances, and job-- but I'm so blasted lucky that way, if you want to call a couple decades of perseverance in an unpleasant job "luck." At this point my retirement account can get shot to bits, or I can (and likely will) lose the last of my health benefits, but at least it is not very likely that I'll lose everything in the next three or four years. That's a lot more than most can say, and I'm grateful for it.
And my own health is better than it has been in years.
I've got to get over this flustered-ness, though, and get some things organized-- including putting my stories out into the Vast Silence where they can be properly ignored. :D
EDIT: And after all that, I forgot to say that the one place I HAVE been posting things is on the Anthrozine web site, http://www.anthrozine.com where I have another one this issue.
It is called _The Way of Legends_ and I kind of like it. It also appeared in the convention book for Further Confusion, back in January, but this is its first time on the net.
I had another story in the Anthrocon book. That's not a bad one either, but it is sort of almost kinda sorta like another story I did a year or two before; repeating old themes in almost the same way. I might submit that one to Anthro too, or just post it here. In any case, I need to go through it and add a bit to it before letting it out. I had to cut it to get it down to meet Anthrocon's submission standards, and I cut it a bit TOO much. It's kind of choppy. It could be a nice story too, once I've smoothed it a bit.
Writing has been... meh. I'm not going to do the artistic whining thing here about how unappreciated I am, especially because most of the lack of response to my recent writings has been because I have FORGOTTEN TO POST THEM places. I don't know when the last time I posted to my own personal site may have been, and the first thing I need to do before posting there is go back through my various stories and my posts here and see what ought to be transferred over there in one form or another.
I also haven't posted to The Fandom Site I frequent in several months. That's easier to figure out, since only the anthropomorphic animal stories go there; not the poetry or the general "Postcards" related stuff. But I've got three or four stories to put up even there (I think).
Of course one source of my discouragement is that I DID post a couple nice pictures there. These are tasteful nudes-- I don't enjoy them the way one might enjoy pornography, oh no, not me, my heart is too pure for that (looks away and whistles innocently..) very nice pieces, though, just beautiful. They really go to the heart.
I only posted somebody else's work on my own page because she asked me to. They were originals I got from her at the convention. One was a little sketch she sold, the other was a sketch in my sketchbook; she didn't have the means to take digital copies of them at the time. So with her permission I posted them on my own page. That way she could grab copies of them without having to give me any personal contact information. (I don't think I'm that creepy, but there ARE creepy folks out there, and artists need to be careful sometimes.)
Well.. those two sketches between them got as many "faves" as all the stories I ever posted there combined. It just figures. I know what the "readers" want, and it ain't me.
Come to think of it, I guess that might be why I haven't posted stories much lately. I'm still writing stuff. I always will. But when I post a story I do it so someone else can enjoy them. I hope they do, but it's only seldom I get any sort of feedback that anybody does.
Although one sure way to get feedback is to, say, get one of the rules of poker wrong. You'll get a dozen people jumping in to set you straight on it.
Other than that, I have been pretty busy with family stuff. We had a funeral for a distant relative of mine- she was 101 years old, and healthy enough to enjoy life almost to the end, so in a way it's hard to grieve too much for her. And as usual I'm worried about the health of several of my other relatives and the heartaches of certain dear friends-- the tragedy of why things have to go sour for people who don't deserve it.
Also some worries about my own future, finances, and job-- but I'm so blasted lucky that way, if you want to call a couple decades of perseverance in an unpleasant job "luck." At this point my retirement account can get shot to bits, or I can (and likely will) lose the last of my health benefits, but at least it is not very likely that I'll lose everything in the next three or four years. That's a lot more than most can say, and I'm grateful for it.
And my own health is better than it has been in years.
I've got to get over this flustered-ness, though, and get some things organized-- including putting my stories out into the Vast Silence where they can be properly ignored. :D
EDIT: And after all that, I forgot to say that the one place I HAVE been posting things is on the Anthrozine web site, http://www.anthrozine.com where I have another one this issue.
It is called _The Way of Legends_ and I kind of like it. It also appeared in the convention book for Further Confusion, back in January, but this is its first time on the net.
I had another story in the Anthrocon book. That's not a bad one either, but it is sort of almost kinda sorta like another story I did a year or two before; repeating old themes in almost the same way. I might submit that one to Anthro too, or just post it here. In any case, I need to go through it and add a bit to it before letting it out. I had to cut it to get it down to meet Anthrocon's submission standards, and I cut it a bit TOO much. It's kind of choppy. It could be a nice story too, once I've smoothed it a bit.
